Back in Holland, being challenged by this song...

Will you go?
Will you follow?
Did you really mean it
When you said yes...
Did you really mean it
when you said; "here's my life"
Will you still be mine on the mountain of myrrh?
Will you follow, will you say good bye to your selfish ambition, to the things of the world?
Will you say good bye to your father and your mother, will you follow Me?

This is love that a man would lay down His life, just as He laid down His life
I am Yours Jesus!
Will you take up your cross?

I say yes, I say yes, as You move my heart away, as You call me by my name
I say yes, I will go my way to the mountain of myrrh

For God is an all consuming fire, a burning flame. He is jealous for me
I will embrace the pain, I will embrace the flame and say yes to the mountain
I will say yes to the cross
For I am crucified with Christ
It is no longer I that live, but Christ in me

It is not a duty, it is not a rule, it is because of love...and I say yes

To be continued....

I have decided to set this blogspot on a "pause"
Love being here, have a great time, prayer room is challenging but good :-)

Blessings!

Psalm 27:4 only 1 thing is needed...

One thing I have desired of the Lord
That will I seek
That I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life
To behold the beauty of the Lord
and to inquire in His temple

1 funny thing; this morning they sounded the sirene for tornadoes (first Wednesday of the month, it was a test) leaping lizards, what a horrible noise! You cant listen to that without putting your fingers in your ears, it is LOUD

Liedje Justin Rizzo

Jaja....je leest het goed...geen eens Misty Edwards deze keer maar Justin...Misty heeft namelijk een sabbath jaar...

I know that this momentary light affliction
is working in me
An eternal weight of glory
An eternal weight of glory

For You are God
And You know what You want
And You know how to get it the fasted way
With the least amount of pain
But pain is guaranteed

I wanna live a life
that's worthy of Your calling
remove the things which hinder me
from loving You because I
don't want regret upon the day I stand before You
May I be found a pure and spotless bride

My biggest fear is regret
My greatest fear is growing in bitterness
My boggest fear is regret
on the day I stand before You

As the days go by
and the months go by
and the years go by
there's so many opportunities
For offense to take root (in my heart)

I wanna live a life
that's worthy of Your calling
remove the things which hinder me
from loving You because I
don't want regret upon the day I stand before You
May I be found a pure and spotless bride

Stephanie and me :-)

Elizabeth and me :-)

My room mate: Elizabeth and Sweet Muffin from FITN 2007
Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sooooooooooo excited to see them!
Went to Coldstone at night to eat Ice cream :-)
Love it!

Henny and Victor bringing me to the trainstation

Give me the gift
of abandonment
Give me the gift
of surrender to Your Love

Awaken Love

It takes God to love God

Veilig aangekomen

Home sweet home

Feel like coming home :-)
Happy, blessed and excited to be here...
Recovering from jetlag...

Back on track?!

Ok, donderdag is het weer zover; op naar IHOP :-)
Met mn bijbel op schoot...zittend op de blauwe stoelen... of heen en weer lopen...whrestling with God...and pray... trying to sit at His feet... to love God and be Loved by Him, meditating on His Word...
Ben ik er klaar voor? Not yet, but I will live and not die
In times when I don't understand Him nor His ways, this one thing I know; I can trust His heart, for He is good and His mercy endures, they are new every morning...

VERY excited to see and meet my friends and room mates :-D

ayayaya YIPPEEEEEEEEEEE I can't wait to GO and spend time in the prayer room!!! :-)
But for now; I need to pack my bags cause I will be leaving in 2 days :-)
whooooohooooooooooooo

Blessings!!!

Mushy or mushroom?

anyway... for those who know what I mean...that's how I feel LOL

home sweet home...

Including the wooden shoes

My friedn Ingeborg, me, my sister Henny and her friend Victor

me, my mom, Victor (friend of my sister), my sister, my friend Ingeborg and my dad :-)

From Kansas City to Chicago...

a song from Justin Rizzo

I want to run the race
I want to keep the faith
Help me to run to win the price
Of the knowledge of You

I want to live before Your eyes
I want to stay before Your gaze
Just keep me steady here
I want to live before Your eyes
I want to stay before Your gaze
Just keep me steady here

I want to be found faithful
I wan to be found steady
I want to be found faithful until the end

I don't want to be ashamed
the day I see Your face
Keep my footsteps firm
Hold me in Your grace

song yesterday

Here I am waiting
with a heart of faith
with a heart of hope
with a heart believing
that You are faithful

Give me a heart of faith
give me a heart if hope
give me a heart believing
You'll be faithful

This is my confidence; He who began a good work will be faithful to complete it

Im here in the waiting room...

worship set yesterday

don't leave the place of believing
whatever you do
where ever you go
just hang on to this one thing

don't leave this place
for bitterness will have you if you let it go
Just believe
just keep on believing
You are like the man of old
you are like the man of faith
I have you on a journey that no man knows
You will walk by faith and not by sight
is it enough for you to know
'that I am watching
is it enough for you?
to know that I am smiling
Is it enough for your that you never see the break through
its just like Abraham
to walk in a better way
but this is the gift I give to you
its the gift of faith
is it enough for you
Am I enough for you?
Just don't leave the desert
just don't leave the wilderness
just don't leave this weakness
just don't leave this hunger pain, this thirsty ache
just don't leave the wilderness
is it enough for you to know that I called you as a man of faith
is it enough for you that I have this way for you
don't look to the right don't look to the left
is it enough for you to go the way of Abraham
is it enough for you to go across the desert
is it enough that I have chosen you to live before My eyes
don't compare yourself to the other men
don't look to the left, don't look to the right, that is not your portion
is it enough for you
Every little tear I hold in my bottle
all your struggle and all your fighting
you are living from the inside out and this is why I have chosen you
and wisdom will be justified
looks like foolishness to men
but it is the wisdom of God
Listen My beloved in whom I am well pleased, well done My faithful one
I would stop the whole world
to tell you that I love you
That you are not alone
Just to tell you that you please Me
that I am proud on you
it is not vain, it is not in vain
you didn't loose your way, you didn't choose the wrong way
you followed me
you 've chosen rightly
there's no regrets
Listen My beloved in whom I am well pleased, well done, My faithful one
I would stop the whole wide world and this entire room
no regrets
you've chose My way
I love you
am I enough for you?
cause you are more then enough for Me

making christmas cookies, dipping it in chocolate :-)

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :-D
This totally made my day, it was sooooooo cool!

Me and Beulah, making Rudolf the red nosed reindeer :-)

Nathan and Beulah :-)

worship at IHOP

The way of God is the wilderness
It has always been in the wilderness
the way of God is weakness
It is voluntary weakness

It's My ways, not your ways
What are you gonna do
What are you gonna choose
cause there is no way around it

The way of God is the wilderness
It has always been in the wilderness
the way of God is weakness
It is voluntary weakness

Men they say put on your strength
Men they say rise to the top
Men say make your way forward
But God says, listen the hungry and the thirsty they shall be filled
Gods says you gotta go lower and lower
God says I will meet you in the desert
There is no way around it
You gotta go through it

The way of God is the wilderness
It has always been in the wilderness
the way of God is weakness
It is voluntary weakness

Seems a little barren
It feels a little empty
Like a hunger pain it just wont go away
sometimes lonely and bitter sweet
this is the desert
the place where we meet
There 's no one here
its just you and me and Me and you
God You know I love you
But surely there´s got to be another way than this
but somehow as I look to history
and all Your friends
they found their way
Cause no one who waits on the Lord will ever be put to shame
but I hate waiting Lord
but its Your way and not my way
everything in me hates this place of waiting
but God it´s Your way, not my way
Oh so mysterious is the way of God
You meet me in weakness

The way of God is the wilderness
It has always been in the wilderness
the way of God is weakness
It is voluntary weakness

So I wait
and so I wait
but somehow inside me
there are all these new things I can do for You
there is so much I can build and plant
but why do you want to have me in the wilderness
But God I learn to pray, I learn to lean, I learn to trust You

The way of God is the wilderness
It has always been in the wilderness
the way of God is weakness
It is voluntary weakness

There is no other way
there is no other way
There is no way around
Blessed are the hungry
blessed are the thirsty
Blessed are those who mourn
there is no way around it
there is no other way
This is the way of God

The way of God is the wilderness
It has always been in the wilderness
the way of God is weakness
It is voluntary weakness

Its a little frustrating, just waiting
God your ways are wonderful
but God Your ways are miserable
It seems like it never ends
its sounds so romantic, it sounds so noble
But I don´t know where I got myself into
But God I trust You
Because it´s Your way
It seems like days turn into weeks
and weeks into months and months into years
and I´m still here, it seems like it never end

The way of God is the wilderness
It has always been in the wilderness
the way of God is weakness
It is voluntary weakness

Who will go to the desert?
who will go? who will go?
There's no other way
there is no way around it
All of my friends are in the desert
There is no way around it
It's God's way, it's the only way

Abba Father, my Defender, You are holy and I surrender. In my weakness You protect me and when my heart strays, You correct me

Eileen...wow...truly God's ways are so perfect! He is so good to us! You have a special place in my heart. Words are not enough but Im so thankfull to God that He has put you on my way, thank You Jesus :-)

The Dutchies at the banquet... :-) Hup Holland hup!

One big happy family

My sisters in Christ :-) I love you
Today we had the Banquet as the end of the internship is now here. We ate, were dressed up and many more cool things...the days of 'saying good bye" has begun...aiaiai :-(

Lilly and Leah my awesome room mates :-)

Stephanie, my room mate, you rock! Thankx so much for preparing me for the end times with all the daily earth quakes hehehe ;-)

Ariel, my core leader :-)

Elizabeth and Kandi, 2 of my room mates

The prayer warriors

Me and Amy, every Friday we were praying together, so she is oen of my prayer buddies :-) great times!!!

Sweet muffin and my prayer buddy Amy

Amy, you rock dude! Looking forward to see you again :-)
This is in the morning at six...LOL as the nightwatch goes to bed and the day people take it over...to keep the fire burning :-)

Me and sweet muffin aka Melissa

I will go my way, I will go my way, to the mountain. This one thing I'll do, this one thing I'll do; I press on

Worship using Song of Solomon 4:6

I will leave it all behind,
This one thing I will do
I press on to the call of knowing You
to knowing You
Cause when You said come seek my face,
my heart said, Your face I will seek
Cause I just want to know You
I just have to know You
God I want to know You
So I press on
So I will go my way
I will go my way
to the mountain
I set my heart on a pilgrimage
I set my face like flint
I won't turn back
I won't turn around